Paradoks is personal for me as the author is my Taurean twin, May, i call her Meiba.
I firstly met her as we stayed under one roof in Bandung, a junior University student.
Still skinny, lol. We close into each other ever since.
One day *i don't exactly remember when* she let me read "Paradoks" and i fell instantly.
Paradoks is a fairy tale that every teenage girl is dying for.
"Awefully handsome, architect, gentleman, loveable, rich Karis. Nothing less"
Who wouldn't love him if he does exist?
This novel felt sooo right that time, i was a deadly romantic person and i was also in a relationship with my own 'Karis'.
As a teenager, i sometimes doubted myself to be with him as i didn't have enough confident, not so sure whether i deserve him or what.
After my first reading Paradoks i had those post-novel-syndrome, to be with your Prince Charming, whoever he is, no matter how perfect he is.
I felt that i found my strength, my hope, my faith with Paradoks.
I told May that she has to publish it one day. I was amazed with the written-skill that she had in her young age *yet she keeps growing on writing until now, blog or novel*
7years after (NOW), she finally publishes "Paradoks" in a book after an e-book version.
Hey Paradoks, a dream come true :)
He is my hi-school friend, we were close as he used to borrow all assignments, notes, everything related to school thingy. He's smart but lazy :p. We weren't talk deeply before, we only said jokes to one another. We lost contact for few years, til we start to meet again around last year
Feb 2012
He BBM me and asked "How's ur life", my answer "I'm quite okay, so far still good".
I am introvert, I am introvert, I'll keep it myself.
July 2012
He BBM me again and asked "How's ur life?u popped in my mind while i was meditating yesterday", my answer "I'm not okay".
What the hell with introvert, i can't hold it anymore..
He asked me to meet up.
The day we met, first half hour I still smiled. The next two and half hour I cried. I told him stories, how I felt about my current life, how I feel cursed without choice for my own-life. I was unhappy, had unease days, no passion, depressed, lost hope, full of anger and pain, etc, etc, etc.
He listened. Only listened.
I asked him two "why should me?" and "why should now?"
Been months and tears still crawling on my cheeks, whenever dad crosses my mind.
All those pains, those fights, those sacrifaction that we had gone through together..
I'm asking God, why oh why.
I'm nonstop questioning.
I hate my life, and I'm unhappy
Then universe lets us meet one evening in
"Awakening the divine YOU"
I met my first Guru. It started with
"There's no such a coincidence, u're here because u meant to be here"
It continued normally until he asked: "Who feels that something is missing in ur life?", and he pointed at me out of around 30peoples in that room
"What's missing in ur life miss?"
Somehow I knew he'd call me and I was freaking out. My mind kept asking how come he knows? My heart thumped and my words just went out
"My health......"
"Anything else?"
"My happiness...... My job........", and I started tearing.
"I can see a lot of sadness in ur heart dear"
I was shaken.
To: Our dearest doctor, Lim Yean Teng
THANK YOU, to accept our Dad as ur patient
THANK YOU, to take care of him so much
THANK YOU, to help him having another time to spend
THANK YOU, to be a great doctor we've ever met.
"It isn't only about being genius doctor,
but also having a BIG HEART"
