tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32895422361331205422024-03-14T17:18:03.140+07:00Life is short, so do it rightdon't we?Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger59125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-67293720713203354152013-05-19T21:48:00.000+07:002013-08-01T15:25:24.102+07:00I am (also) lucky<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I realize that life has given me so many hard times and most of it, i curse.<br /> And only this time i can see it another way around, flipped my way of thinking<i> and let me share it for my own notes..<br /> </i></span><br /> I nearly understand that <b>in life we're our own life architect</b>.<br /> <span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">We draw, design, build and maintain how we want our life to be.<br /> We're the goddest of ours</span></span></b></span><br /> <br /> Most of people (includes me) might have times when we feel ungrateful for who we are. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Bornt not pretty, not rich, not genius, not perfect or just nobody<br /> <u>We often envy people who was bornt with that lucky states.</u><br /> It's true that they are lucky to be bornt pretty, rich or genius or perfect or somebody..<br /> <span style="font-size: small;">T</span>hey have a good start<br /> <span style="font-size: small;">T</span>hey have 'more' than regular people<br /> <span style="font-size: small;">T</span>hey have<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">th<span style="font-size: small;">ose <span style="font-size: small;">flashy life </span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">effortlessly</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">We also need to remember :</span><b><br /> <span style="color: red; font-size: small;">We are prepared for <span style="font-size: large;">OUR OWN</span> portion of <u>gift, self-earn, lose, chance</u> in life.</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">It's just a matter of time, when and how, now or later.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">A matter of different start point, with a possibilities with same or greater finish</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">It depends on us whether we just stare and envy on other's start or whether we know how far we should run for it</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>Remember the story of 'rabbit and turtle race' where slow-walker turtle who doesn't have the capabilities to win over the fast-runner rabbit, surprisingly win the race.<br /> - Turtle never stares on rabbit's start point as a fast-runner; turtle has a dream with him, keep running and never give up; turtle learns from rabbit arrogancy and laziness -</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"It's okay to be slow, as long as u don't stop"</span></b></span>,<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> <span style="font-size: small;">deeply said by confucius</span></span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i><span style="color: red;">Life is much easier yet happier when u only thank for whatever it is</span> </i></span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: #999999;"><i>and here's mine :)</i></span></span><br /> <br /> <span style="color: blue;"><b>I am (also) lucky to be bornt <span style="font-size: large;">not pretty</span></b></span>, to be compared or valued less pretty than others<span style="font-size: small;">,</span> so that i can learn appreciat<span style="font-size: small;">ing</span> values each way of personal beauty, i can learn to be humble and fill my inner beauty to balance up my outer. Rather than being a bad swan, i prefer being a good duck <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>(The best to be a good swan though :p)</i></span><br /> <br /> <span style="color: blue;"><b>I am (also) lucky to be bornt <span style="font-size: large;">not rich</span></b></span>, nor had a rich boyfriend<span style="font-size: small;">,</span> so that i can learn how to work my ass off, enjoy the journey of achieving dreams with my own hands. Later when im a billionare, i can look back and remember where i was thus i'll still stay down to earth. I'll remind myself not to judge or differentiate people from what brand they wear, what car they drive, which house they are staying or how much they earn<span style="font-size: small;">. Anyway,</span> <span style="font-size: small;">l</span>ife is a cycle<span style="font-size: small;"> so</span> we'll never know<br /> <br /> <span style="color: blue;"><b>I am (also) lucky to be bornt <span style="font-size: large;">not genius</span></b></span><span style="font-size: small;">, </span>so that i have an endless opportunities to never stop learning, never be too arrogant to say "i know everything..there's nothing more".<br /> <br /> <span style="color: blue;"><b>I am (also) lucky to be bornt <span style="font-size: large;">not perfect</span></b></span><span style="font-size: small;">,</span> so that i have those space to fill my imperfection. i'll never stuck on the same place thus keep growing myself near perfection of me<br /> <span style="color: blue;"><b><br /> I am (also) lucky to be <span style="font-size: small;">placed <span style="font-size: large;">between mean or selfish people</span></span></b></span>, to be hurted so badly<span style="font-size: small;">,</span> so that i have a chance to understand their limited value, deeply learn how i ain't supposed to be like any of them, yet learn how to maintain my heart at peace and forgive them<br /> <span style="color: blue;"><b><br /> I am (also) lucky to be bornt as <span style="font-size: large;">nobody</span></b></span><span style="font-size: small;">,</span> so that one day i can gladly knowing that i am "somebody" to someone else ;). <i>Helpful hand, strong shelter, ear to listen and a loving heart</i><br /> <br /> Last but not least,<br /> <span style="color: blue;"><b>I am lucky to have <span style="font-size: large;">this life, my life, to be exist, to be alive</span>, to have this 27 years with me, </b><span style="color: black;">yet still counting and polishing.</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: blue;"><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><br /> <i>Live the lightest life even with the heaviest problems, stop comparing with others, follow my heart for what i dream of, be a real happy person inside out</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> <b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"True that life is never fair,<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>but only when we keep seeing it that way..</span></b></span></span><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"> Life is fair when we realize that we always bring back (the least) a lesson.</span></span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><br /> <br /> </span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-11644418362585334672013-03-19T13:20:00.000+07:002013-03-19T13:20:51.499+07:00be selfish<span style="color: #666666;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">jumped too deep on my mind...rolling it all together<br /> ended<span style="font-size: small;">-</span>up, i'm exploded and relieved at time.</span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #666666;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">weird <span style="font-size: small;">huh?</span> </span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /> <b>i share away my anger, i told the world. i don't care</b><br /> i'm angry to selfish and uncare people..it's bulk of shit. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">i'm hurt<span style="font-size: small;">ed</span> even when i'm tired to get hurt<br /> <b>I share away my pressure,i told people even they might see me insane.</b><br /> <b>i share away my hat<span style="font-size: small;">red</span>, i told everyone. i don't mind.</b><br /> i hate how universe seems unfair, it tastes too bitter until i numb and feel less. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">i keep anger even when i'm tired to keep it<br /> <b>i share away my tireness, i let them know. i'm tired for having neither breath nor break.<br /> i share away my sadness, i told myself.</b><br /> i'm sad about various thing happening now. i cry even when i'm tired to cry. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">i'm human.<br /> <br /> currently i guess..</span></span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">i need to less sensitive or worry or fear or <u>even think</u>.</span><br /> <span style="font-size: x-small;">as i do it too much</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> <b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">why care for people when they don't sincerely care for u?</span></span></b></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> why think of future when there's no guarantee for another tomorrow?</span></span></b></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> why bother tomorrow if i have my today?</span></span></b></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></span></b></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> why feel unconfident when i have my precious value?</span></span></b></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> why bother others judgement when they don't stand on ur feet, barely understand?</span></span></b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">why cry over things for free?</span></span></b></span></span> </span></span></b></span></span><br />
<br /><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> i need to live life that some others are counting on.. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>[just like when i did appreciate time when dad was progressing well in hospital]</i></span><br /> i need to thankful for every new other day.. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>[just like when i appreciate another coming day for dad]</i></span><br /> i need to remind myself for foods, drinks, home, phone, car, clothes, money, health that i still enjoy every single day..<br /> <span style="font-size: large;">I need to be grateful for <b>my life</b> itself.</span><br /> <br /> i accept things yet i guess <u>i'm on the way to accept the whole things.</u><br /> <span style="color: red;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">i'm handling fine though, i'm doing something right.</span></b></span><br /> i ain't gonna lose myself again, i hardly get it back.<br /> i wanna be happy and i do like human do..<br /> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;">be SELFISH<br /> be IGNORANT</span></b></span></span><br /> i don't hold inside, and it helps somehow..<br /> <br /> a dear friend told me</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;">"You can blame others but dont put a blame on yourself, you always do your best though..</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"> Never doubt what's your value, you're great..</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"> When things get too hard, then complain-angry-scream it. Don't hold it inside.."</span></span></div>
<u><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">a</span>nd i'll do.<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span>t</span>hus im okay.</span></span></b></u><br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-53467799078505079942013-03-03T02:06:00.001+07:002013-08-01T15:29:30.421+07:00finding, falling, flying-off love<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">In my daily prayers i rarely ask something for myself. Adverse of usual, that </span><span style="font-size: small;">one time i sincerely pray..</span></span><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: large;">"God, i wanna meet A tree</span><br /><span style="font-size: small;"> A strong tree where i can lean on whenever i feel tired with my life</span><br /><span style="font-size: small;"> A wise tree that can listen w<span style="font-size: small;">holeheartedly and cheer me up</span></span><br /><span style="font-size: small;"> A loyal tree with whom i have my forever company"</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">T</span>hose </span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">"</span>law of attraction" kinda happening...</span></span></i> </span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I meet <span style="font-size: small;">you.. </span>who step into my mind and can<span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-size: small;">'</span></span>t ever step out from<span style="font-size: small;">, </span>who makes <span style="font-size: small;">life seems even <span style="font-size: small;">brighter</span>,</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">who brings my long-lost faith<span style="font-size: small;"> back, </span>whom i don't want to let go</span></span></span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><span style="color: red;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;">U are unperfectly... perfect, u are just... right<br />U surprisingly surprised me.<br />U treat me in a manner gently and listen to me thoughtfully as u care <br />U took my heart away in few hours, and i don't mind</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>but then..</b><br /> why i meet <span style="font-size: small;">u</span> in first place if we aren't meant to be?<br /> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">why i keep expecting when it leads to dissapointment?</span></span></span><br /> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">why should i cry when i know i shouldn't?</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">why i believe on all those signal<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>if i might get it wrong?</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">why i fall into <span style="font-size: small;">u</span> just to be <span style="font-size: small;">ur another friend</span>?</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><b><span style="color: #674ea7;">Universe, u know it. </span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>i'm tired of being strong me</i></span></span></span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> and please let me dock in someone's heart, someplace, somehow..</span></i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>i reconstructed my heart from pain yet my faith from sarcasm and it took some time and please let me feel..</i></span><br /> <span style="color: #674ea7; font-size: large;"><b>Universe, u know it.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He <span style="font-size: small;">might <span style="font-size: small;">and mightn<span style="font-size: small;">'</span>t be just another<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>fling</span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He <span style="font-size: small;">might <span style="font-size: small;">and mightn<span style="font-size: small;">'</span>t be just another<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>friend</span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I <span style="font-size: small;">finally t<span style="font-size: small;">urning my head, stopping <span style="font-size: small;">purposely,</span> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">sincerely waiting<span style="font-size: small;">..</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I finally <span style="font-size: small;">have a will to g<span style="font-size: small;">ive my heart<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">away</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I<span style="font-size: small;"> feel so alive</span> to taste those butterfly stomach<span style="font-size: small;">,<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">happy mood, thumping hear<span style="font-size: small;">t</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">, love song and</span> <span style="font-size: small;">i </span>want more...</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I feel so normal. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Just a</span> little while, a little while<span style="font-size: small;">, a little while, a little while</span></span></span><span style="font-size: small;">...</span></span></i></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I keep waiting <span style="font-size: small;">and suffering..</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Hours change into <span style="font-size: small;">day</span>s<span style="font-size: small;">, <span style="font-size: small;">day</span>s change to m<span style="font-size: small;">onths</span></span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Those</span> hope <span style="font-size: small;">being cut down into half<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">, <span style="font-size: small;">quarter, </span></span>then</span> to nothing..</span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Th<span style="font-size: small;">ose day<span style="font-size: small;"> never come<span style="font-size: small;">, m</span>aybe those day w<span style="font-size: small;">ill never come.</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">And i'm tired <span style="font-size: small;">waiting<span style="font-size: small;">, or, </span><u>i choo<span style="font-size: small;">se<span style="font-size: small;"> to stop waiting</span></span></u></span></span></span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Told mys<span style="font-size: small;">elf<span style="font-size: small;"> that i</span></span> t<span style="font-size: small;">ried my best, i did my part.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">The ball is <span style="font-size: small;">in his co<span style="font-size: small;">urt and he n<span style="font-size: small;">ever returns it<span style="font-size: small;">, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">i guess that's his answer.. or <u><b>it's <span style="font-size: small;">U</span>niverse ans<span style="font-size: small;">wer..</span></b></u></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><b> </b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>*long <span style="font-size: small;">e<span style="font-size: small;">xhale</span></span>*</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;">Out of reach, so far<span style="font-size: small;">,</span> i never had your heart<br /> Out of reach, couldn't see<span style="font-size: small;">,</span> we were never meant to be<br /> Catch myself from despair i could drown if i stay here<br /> Keeping busy everyday i know i will be OK<br /> But i was.. so confused, my heart's bruised<br /> Was i ever loved by you? <br />So much hurt,so much pain<br /> Takes a while to regain what is lost inside<br /> And i hope that in time you'll be out of my mind<br /> And I'll be over you </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Out of reach<span style="font-size: x-small;"> -</span> Gabrielle</span> </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Anyhow,<span style="font-size: small;"> anyway.. bitter to say <span style="font-size: small;">yet</span> also realize <span style="font-size: small;">truth </span>that<span style="font-size: small;"><i> </i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>*long <span style="font-size: small;">e<span style="font-size: small;">xhale <span style="font-size: small;">again</span></span></span>*</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He m<span style="font-size: small;">ight and mighn't be <span style="font-size: small;">my<span style="font-size: small;"> top</span> priority</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He might and mighn't be my </span></span>"ri<span style="font-size: small;">ght person, right time"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He might and mighn't be my <span style="font-size: small;">t</span>ree</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #674ea7; font-size: large;"><b>Universe, u know it.</b></span></span></span> </span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I <span style="font-size: small;">finally t<span style="font-size: small;">urning back my head, moving on <span style="font-size: small;">purposely,</span> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">stop waiting<span style="font-size: small;">..</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I finally <span style="font-size: small;">have a will to take back<span style="font-size: small;"> my heart</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I<span style="font-size: small;"> still feel alive</span> without him...</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I still feel normal. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>*long <span style="font-size: small;">e<span style="font-size: small;">xhale </span></span>again<span style="font-size: small;"> and </span>again*</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">I ain't really sure what <span style="font-size: small;">this is</span>.. <span style="font-size: small;">wh<span style="font-size: small;">y does it happen</span>.. wh<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">ich</span> is right or wrong..</span></span></span></span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">But I <span style="font-size: small;">con<span style="font-size: small;">vince myself </span></span>(and anoth<span style="font-size: small;">er hundre</span>d<span style="font-size: small;"> times of convincing)<span style="font-size: small;">: <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">W</span>hatever,</span> it will never go wrong for me.<span style="font-size: small;"> T</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">h<span style="font-size: small;">is journey of </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>"finding,falling and flying off love"</b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">will make it right one day....<i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">l</span>et <span style="font-size: small;">Universe takes control<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">A</span>nd </span></span></b><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;">i'd</span></span></b><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"> always wanted to say to u,</span></span></b> </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>"...... <span style="font-size: x-large;">and i'm letting u fly</span><span style="font-size: large;">"</span></b></span><span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-54580973339304838612013-02-23T00:12:00.002+07:002013-03-03T12:34:18.055+07:00scrabble mind<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">w</span>arning: this is </i><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">a </span>blabbery </i><span style="font-size: small;"><i>post</i><span style="font-size: small;"><i>, get ready<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></i> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span> </span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Lately, </span>I have this new habit of bri<span style="font-size: small;">nging my phone into the bathro<span style="font-size: small;">om. <i>Yes, </i><span style="font-size: small;"><i>bathroom</i>.</span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">U</span>suall<span style="font-size: small;">y <span style="font-size: small;">l<span style="font-size: small;">ine<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>pop or jewel mania or candy crush <span style="font-size: small;">games </span><u><i><span style="color: #666666;">(gosh, this games are addictive!)</span></i> </u>will <span style="font-size: small;">accompany me <span style="font-size: small;">while doing my morning <span style="font-size: small;">ritual <span style="font-size: small;">but <span style="font-size: small;">i do differently</span> <span style="font-size: small;">today.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Refer to a friend it will help lifting up ur mood, I start playing music in my phone then,</span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">taa<span style="font-size: large;">aaa</span>-daaaaa</span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">As</span> i sing along<span style="font-size: small;">, i g<span style="font-size: small;">et <span style="font-size: small;">slowly</span> realiz<span style="font-size: small;">ing</span> <span style="font-size: small;">how th<span style="font-size: small;">ese </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">three songs in a row represent how i feel.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Old song always successfully revives<span style="font-size: small;"> my <span style="font-size: small;">personal memories<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>Guess i<span style="font-size: small;">'m <span style="font-size: small;">i<span style="font-size: small;">n</span> the same romance level <span style="font-size: small;">with <span style="font-size: small;">song-write<span style="font-size: small;">r<span style="font-size: small;">, </span>high fiv<span style="font-size: small;">e!<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">A<span style="font-size: small;">ctually </span></span>I'm quite an expressive person<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>but at this moment i <span style="font-size: small;">kinda </span>lose <span style="font-size: small;">describable </span>word<span style="color: #674ea7;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><b>..</b></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">(</span>and keep staring on my whats<span style="font-size: small;">a</span>pp screen</span>)</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>(and <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">dislike</span> friday night)</span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">(a<span style="font-size: small;">nd <span style="font-size: small;">hate <span style="font-size: small;">broken promises)</span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><i> </i><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Yeahhhh.. <b>WHATEVER</b>..<span style="font-size: small;">..</span> i just feel like <span style="font-size: small;">shar</span>ing <span style="font-size: small;">my <span style="font-size: small;">"</span>song of the</span> day"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><i></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><br /></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: red;">Listen to, sip it, feel gloomy, enjoy!!!</span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">hiding from the rain and snow, trying to forget but I won't let go</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">looking at a crowded street, listening to my own heart beat</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">so many people all around the world, tell me where do I find someone like you boy </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">take me to your heart take me to your soul, give me your hand before I'm old</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">show me what love is haven't got a clue, show me that wonders can be true</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">they say nothing lasts forever, we're only here today</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">love is now or never, bring me far away</span></span></b></span></div>
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<b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;">take me to your heart take me to your soul<br />
give me your hand and hold me, show me what love is, be my guiding star<br />
it's easy take me to your heart<br />
standing on a mountain high, looking at the moon through a clear blue sky</span></span></span></b></div>
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<b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdCpASsqPuk" target="_blank"><span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">T</span></span>ake me to ur hear<span style="font-size: x-small;">t - MLTR</span></span></span></a> </span></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">from my youngest years till this moment here, i've never seen such a lovely king</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">from the skies above to deepest love i've never felt crazy like this before </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">paint my love you should paint my love </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">it's the picture of thousand sunsets, it's the freedom of a thousand doves </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">baby you should paint my love </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">been around the world then I met you boy</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">It's like coming home to a place I've known</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">paint my love you should paint my love </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">it's the picture of thousand sunsets, it's the freedom of a thousand doves </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">baby you should paint my love </span></span></b></span></div>
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<b><span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;">since you came into my life, the days before all fade to black and white <br />since you came into my life, everything has changed</span> </span></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=70PTSP3g3d4" target="_blank"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Paint my love</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"> - MLTR</span></span></span></span></b></a> </span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">dear Diary, I wanna talk to him again<br />
but whenever he is with his friends, he keeps trying to pretend<br />
but I already see the way he feels for me</span></b></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">what can I do? tell me what can I say</span></b></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">when do I let him know I feel the same way?</span></b></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">how can my feelings be so hard to show when, i really want him to know</span></b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Dear diary - M<span style="font-size: x-small;">2M</span></span></span></span></span></b></span> </span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-2258124894313768662013-02-20T23:18:00.000+07:002013-02-26T21:02:54.637+07:0020.02.2013<span style="color: #999999;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I currently <span style="font-size: small;">have bunch of thoughts that keep me out from writing.<span style="font-size: small;"> For few times, i write <span style="font-size: small;">a post then delete th<span style="font-size: small;">e blo<span style="font-size: small;">g<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">thus feel sad about <span style="font-size: small;">this.<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span>My mind is<span style="font-size: small;"> in a war<span style="font-size: small;">, </span>logic <span style="font-size: small;">v<span style="font-size: small;">s. fee<span style="font-size: small;">ling or </span>sadness vs. happiness</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">My first blog in 2013 <span style="font-size: small;">sadly is about broken hearted, to a man, <span style="font-size: small;">a da<span style="font-size: small;">d<span style="font-size: small;"> (</span><b>my dad</b>)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: red; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So, today has come..</span></span></b><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: red;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">20 02 2013 </span></b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">The day that <span style="font-size: small;">exactly one year ago i thought<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>will<span style="font-size: small;"> never arrive<span style="font-size: small;">, but here i am.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">And <span style="font-size: small;">all those memories come strong<span style="font-size: small;">, <span style="font-size: small;">drag<span style="font-size: small;"> me back to</span></span> <span style="font-size: small;">what happen<span style="font-size: small;">ed <span style="font-size: small;">last year</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">H</span>ow scary time f<span style="font-size: small;">lies, been like just ye<span style="font-size: small;">sterday</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Y</span>et how slowly time flies<span style="font-size: small;">, been <span style="font-size: small;">like years in hell</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b><br />
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span 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small;">******</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I was watching drama <span style="font-size: small;">Heartstring<span style="font-size: small;">s<span style="font-size: small;"> and</span> </span>stayed awake <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">the whole night,<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> tried to <span style="font-size: small;">do <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">my fave </span>kind of refreshing after<span style="font-size: small;"> exhausted <span style="font-size: small;">four </span>months.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">It was 3.30am<span style="font-size: small;"> when my ph<span style="font-size: small;">one suddenly rang and my <span style="font-size: small;">sister <span style="font-size: small;">hardly cr<span style="font-size: small;">ied</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> screaming to me to come to <span style="font-size: small;">the hospital <span style="font-size: small;">NOW. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">She said <span style="font-size: small;">obviously sad and pani<span style="font-size: small;">c </span></span>"<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Daddy</span> has no pulse!!"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">At f<span style="font-size: small;">i<span style="font-size: small;">rst</span></span></span> i d<span style="font-size: small;">idn't really get what it meant with no pulse part<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">but i ha<span style="font-size: small;">d</span> a very bad feeling hearing <span style="font-size: small;">her voice.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">The next thing i remember<span style="font-size: small;">ed was me,mom and <span style="font-size: small;">other sister<span style="font-size: small;"> arrived in the hospital.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Less than 20 mins drivi<span style="font-size: small;">ng from Sunter (North Jakarta) to Kebon Jeruk (West Jakarta),</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">with the fastest speed and heart beat i've ever <span style="font-size: small;">been</span>, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">the strongest eff<span style="font-size: small;">ort to <span style="font-size: small;">keep calm<span style="font-size: small;"> and </span>hold my tears.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I remembere<span style="font-size: small;">d running <span style="font-size: small;">from the parking area to <span style="font-size: small;">third floor<span style="font-size: small;"> where m<span style="font-size: small;">y Dad was. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Speeding with <span style="font-size: small;">limit<span style="font-size: small;">ed </span></span>time<span style="font-size: small;"> the fastest i c<span style="font-size: small;">ould<span style="font-size: small;">. I was so scared<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">When i arrived<span style="font-size: small;"> just in front of the room, <span style="font-size: small;">overheard the nurse said to <span style="font-size: small;">M</span>om </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">"He is alrea</span>dy passed away.. <span style="font-size: small;">we <span style="font-size: small;">a<span style="font-size: small;">lready do every<span style="font-size: small;">thing we can<span style="font-size: small;">.</span>.."</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">And my stronghold <span style="font-size: small;">f<span style="font-size: small;">ell<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">. <span style="font-size: small;">Totally didn't believe what i heard.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I<span style="font-size: small;">n a sec<span style="font-size: small;">ond afterward<span style="font-size: small;">,</span></span> i was inside the room.<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He<span style="font-size: small;"> was there, <span style="font-size: small;">differe<span style="font-size: small;">ntly.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He was cold. He wasn<span style="font-size: small;">'t moved. He wasn<span style="font-size: small;">'t answered m<span style="font-size: small;">e<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">NO, THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE <span style="font-size: small;">!!! </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">HE CAN'T BE DEAD<span style="font-size: small;">. HE <span style="font-size: small;">HAS TO BE HERE WITH US<span style="font-size: small;">. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">HE IS SUPPOSE<span style="font-size: small;">D</span> TO GO HOME TODA<span style="font-size: small;">Y</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I dragged the nurse into the room,<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">screamed at her how the he<span style="font-size: small;">ll th<span style="font-size: small;">at <span style="font-size: small;">was happened when <span style="font-size: small;">previously he seeme<span style="font-size: small;">d to be okay.<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I s<span style="font-size: small;">at next to Dad, shook his body and <span style="font-size: small;">my vision was tot<span style="font-size: small;">al<span style="font-size: small;">ly blur.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">It was the </span></span></span>saddest tears, ever.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I felt so alone<span style="font-size: small;"> and <span style="font-size: small;">wor<span style="font-size: small;">l<span style="font-size: small;">d sudde<span style="font-size: small;">n<span style="font-size: small;">ly </span></span>stopped spinning.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I <span style="font-size: small;">simp<span style="font-size: small;">ly wanted him to stay here with us.</span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">All w<span style="font-size: small;">hat matter was <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">a</span> life, <span style="font-size: small;">a</span> breat<span style="font-size: small;">h, <span style="font-size: small;">a soul</span></span>.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">My heart was in a constant sor<span style="font-size: small;">e,</span> n<span style="font-size: small;">either hug<span style="font-size: small;">s <span style="font-size: small;">nor </span>words could make me feel better.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I kissed him a good bye<span style="font-size: small;"> that i never tho<span style="font-size: small;">ught i woul<span style="font-size: small;">d do, </span></span></span>the very last one :(</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">(and green is his favourite color) </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-size: large;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Daddy...</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: large;">Today, like the other day, </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: large;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I'm broken hearted cause </span>I miss u</b> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: large;">Today, like the other day, </span><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I cry cause </span>I remember u</span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: large;">Today, like the other day, <b>life still goes on </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Tell me what should i do? </span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">when it's raining and i don't have ur help </span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">when it's night and i don't have ur protection</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">when it's hard time and i don't have ur advise</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">when things broken and i don't have u to fix it</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">when others left and i don't have u around <br />when i'm tired and i don't have u to back me up </span></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Daddy...</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Guess this is my lesson.</span></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I'm tough, even i don't mind to be weak</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I'm alone, even i don't mind to be with someone </span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I stand strong, even i don't mind to fall</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I have smile, even i don't mind to cry</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I let go, even i don't mind to hold</span></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">5more days in 2012 and year will change into 2.0.1.3. <br /><br />Becomes
yearly eve when everyone’s sounding those new-year-resolution, what
kind of achievement, introspection and so on. Thus for me, I sounded instantly
on my mind as simply as “I want to be a better person next year” then
forg<span style="font-size: small;">o</span>t it in a short period after. I never really meant and specified
though what was <i>“A Better Person”.</i><br />Until end of last 2011, the
very first time I really really really meant my new-year-resolution.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I
specified it as <b>“I want to be a good daughter for my dad”</b>. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">He was sick
for months in hospital and all i wanted was things get back to normal
with his presence in home. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I deliberately wanted to do my best for him. <br /><br />We
celebrated our new year’s eve with Dad, beside his hospital bed told
him that year ha<span style="font-size: small;">d</span> changed. As an old type of Chinese people, he believed
that Dragon Year is a blissful year yet he looked forward for his
recovery after new year. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Same with him, <b>I rushed to leave 2011 and
stared high hopes for 2012. </b><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b></b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b><br /><span style="font-size: large;">New year as a new hope, a new page, a new path for us. </span></b></span></span><br /><span style="font-size: small;"><i>We
had simple but sweet celebration, each of us (included Dad) wore a
colorful eye mask- blew a small horn that we bought from nearest store-
took few pictures with phone- counted down 54321 in seconds of year changing-
yelled happily “HAPPY NEW YEAR” and kissed each other cheeks. </i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #666666;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">[ he was there. with me, with us... ]</span></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Life had a different plan for our 2012. Life had surprised us. <br />In the beginning of 2012, just right after Dad celebrated a blissful Dragon Year, he passed away. </span></span><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: large;">20-02-2012 </span></span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="color: #38761d;"><br /><span style="font-size: small;">A beautiful date to see, a hurtful date to feel. </span></span></span></b><br /><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">2012 then becomes a truly nightmare journey for me, the toughest yet the sickest yet the craziest year where I really want to give up. Where I really li<span style="font-size: small;">ve angrily</span> questioning life thus really disappoint<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>on myself “I can never accomplish my resolution even the one that I really meant to.. doubt <span style="font-size: small;">whether i'm</span> a good daughter enough for him..”</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>I literally lose everything I have<span style="font-size: small;">,</span> <span style="font-size: small;">esp los<span style="font-size: small;">ing</span></span> myself.</b> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">I glance a lot of past times where I still had my Dad. I hate a lot of past times where I took times for granted. <br /><br /><b><span style="color: red;">Time flies, thing happens, people changes. </span></b><br />A big struggle in a year has successfully put me back on my stand today. Not call it really firm but I can say I’m okay. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">I’m still crying (a lot) when I’m writing this, still crying (a lot) over past memories with Dad, still feeling sad (a lot) whenever it was about him, still missing him so much. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span><span style="font-size: large;"><u><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>“God will give u what u need, not what u want”</b></span></span></u></span></blockquote>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Sad to say but sometimes I still have this <i>--really? </i>moment, but I start to believe that this is true. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #38761d;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Everything has to be happened for reason, at least <span style="background-color: #38761d;"><span style="color: white;"><u><span style="font-size: small;">a</span> reason</u></span></span>. </span></b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">In the end everyone dies and I learn how to really let go. <i> </i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>Some part of his soul lived somewhere inside of me, he’ll always be here with me. </i><br /> <b>It can be said that 2012 has become the very personal year for me, yet. </b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Close to death, close to changes, close to lessons, close to tears and fights, close to myself, close <span style="font-size: small;">to</span> truths, close to happiness, close to love, close to real life. <br /><b>A year that has changed me a lot, to me today. to 2013. </b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b> </b><br />I may still have the trauma of not having a chance to fulfill my last new-year-resolution. I don’t purposely spend time thinking what I want to be, what is my resolution. But then while writing this post a mind passed by, dropping me this thought..... </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>Happy New Year 2013<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></i></span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-12972810944237701432012-12-17T15:51:00.002+07:002013-02-05T22:22:35.141+07:00Paradoks <span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>Paradoks is personal for me</b><span style="font-size: small;"> a</span>s the author is<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">my Taurean twin, May, i call her <span style="font-size: small;">Meiba.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I</span> fi<span style="font-size: small;">rstly </span>met her <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">as we stayed under <span style="font-size: small;">one </span>roof in Bandung, <span style="font-size: small;">a junior University student. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>Still skinny</i><span style="font-size: small;"><i>, lol. </i></span><i>We<span style="font-size: small;"> close<span style="font-size: small;"> into each o<span style="font-size: small;">ther</span></span> ever <span style="font-size: small;">sin<span style="font-size: small;">ce</span></span>.</span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">On<span style="font-size: small;">e day<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;">*i don't exactly remember </span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">when*</span> <span style="font-size: small;">she let<span style="font-size: small;"> me rea<span style="font-size: small;">d<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">"P<span style="font-size: small;">a</span>radoks"<span style="font-size: small;"> and i f<span style="font-size: small;">e</span>ll instantly<span style="font-size: small;">.<span style="font-size: small;"> </span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: magenta;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Paradoks is a</span> <span style="font-size: small;">fairy tal<span style="font-size: small;">e</span></span></span> tha<span style="font-size: small;">t every tee<span style="font-size: small;">nage </span>girl <u>is dying for</u>. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">"Awefully handsome, architect, gentleman, loveable, rich K<span style="font-size: small;">aris</span>. Nothing less<span style="font-size: small;">"</span><br /> <i>Who wouldn't love him if he does exist? </i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">This novel felt sooo right that time, i was a deadly romantic person and i was also in a relationship with my own 'Karis'.<br />As a teenager, i sometimes doubted myself to be with him as i didn't have enough confident, not so sure whether i deserve him or what.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">After my first reading Paradoks i had those post<span style="font-size: small;">-</span>novel<span style="font-size: small;">-</span>syndrome, to be with your Prince Charming, whoever he is, no matter how perfect he is. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>I felt that i found <span style="font-size: small;">my strength<span style="font-size: small;">, my hope<span style="font-size: small;">, my faith with Paradoks.</span></span></span></b><br />I told <span style="font-size: small;">May</span> that she has to publish it one day. I was amazed with the written-skill that she ha<span style="font-size: small;">d</span> in her young age<span style="font-size: small;"> <i>*yet <span style="font-size: small;">s<span style="font-size: small;">he<span style="font-size: small;"> keeps grow<span style="font-size: small;">ing</span> <span style="font-size: small;">o</span>n writing until now, <a href="http://sanguines.wordpress.com/" target="_blank">blog</a> or novel*</span></span></span></i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">7</span>years after<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><u>(NOW<span style="font-size: small;">)</span></u><span style="font-size: small;">, </span>she <span style="font-size: small;">finally publish<span style="font-size: small;">es</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> "Paradoks" in a book after an e-book version. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #38761d;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">H</span>ey Paradoks, a dream come true :)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I re-read the novel agai<span style="font-size: small;">n<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">and again<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">And still <span style="font-size: small;">amaze <span style="font-size: small;">that<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">what M<span style="font-size: small;">ay-called-cheesy-novel </span>Paradoks still successfully <span style="font-size: small;">put <span style="font-size: small;">smile on my fac<span style="font-size: small;">e, a lot of almost<span style="font-size: small;">-</span>chok<span style="font-size: small;">e</span>, sh<span style="font-size: small;">ake head,</span> drop jaw<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> moments.</span> </span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I still have <span style="font-size: small;">those post<span style="font-size: small;">-</span>novel<span style="font-size: small;">-</span>sydrome, even maybe not as stronger as i was haha.. <i>*<span style="font-size: small;">honestly, i <span style="font-size: small;">a<span style="font-size: small;">in'</span></span></span>t really sure<span style="font-size: small;">*</span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I'm still considering myself as a <strike>deadly</strike> romanti<span style="font-size: small;">c person.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>I also realize<span style="font-size: small;"> that <span style="font-size: small;">reading it several times in different age <span style="font-size: small;">also </span>give a different <span style="font-size: small;">learning after<span style="font-size: small;">.</span> </span></span></span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">"Awefully handsome, architect, gentleman, loveable, rich K<span style="font-size: small;">aris</span>. Nothing less<span style="font-size: small;">"</span><br /> <i>M<span style="font-size: small;">y <span style="font-size: small;">g</span>osh, that kind of man doesn't exist<span style="font-size: small;"> *<span style="font-size: small;">s</span>lap myself* </span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Believe that <span style="font-size: small;">kind of Karis <span style="font-size: small;">might be exi<span style="font-size: small;">st, who knows</span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>? *oh <span style="font-size: small;">g</span>eez*</i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">And <span style="font-size: small;">yeah.. <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Paradoks</span></span></span> has<span style="font-size: small;"> waken my hidden teenage<span style="font-size: small;">r-</span>side <span style="font-size: small;">to debate <span style="font-size: small;">on my adult<span style="font-size: small;"> -already face </span>reality- side :p. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;"><b><span style="font-size: small;">P</span>aradoks</b></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;"><b> is a pure<span style="font-size: small;"> yet</span> inno</b></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;"><b>cent story<span style="font-size: small;"> represent<span style="font-size: small;">i<span style="font-size: small;">ng of </span></span></span>how<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></b></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;"><b>teenage girls</b></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;"><b> in <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">University time </span></span>feel, act, re-act, think, speak, hope<span style="font-size: small;"> and </span>dream</b>.</span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">The conflict serve<span style="font-size: small;">d in Paradoks is most-happened among teenagers<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">"Right in the middle of a sucky boring life, true love gives you a fairy tale" </span></b><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Karis is just like Getssa. Well,at least from Raisa's perspective.</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> It takes no time, no reason, nothing for Raisa to hate Karis<span style="font-size: small;">. As well as an </span>excuse to deny <span style="font-size: small;">her </span>tru<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">e feeling</span> and <span style="font-size: small;">keep it fr<span style="font-size: small;">om </span>her best friend<span style="font-size: small;">, Sel<span style="font-size: small;">phi<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">, who also has</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">f<span style="font-size: small;">eeling to Karis</span></span>.</i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Karis existence between their friendship makes it complicated all along.<br />
With additional triangle love drama when Raisa meets Yksel who is head over heels into
her.</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span>Karis<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>efforts to lessen Raisa's hate,
has <span style="font-size: small;">got</span> him to know her unique. </span></span></span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">She isn't ordinary.</span></span></span></span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>(and the story goe<span style="font-size: small;">s...get more <a href="http://www.nulisbuku.com/books/view/paradoks" target="_blank">here</a>)</span></i> </span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">The begin<span style="font-size: small;">ning of Paradoks story is <span style="font-size: small;">quite <span style="font-size: small;">commo<span style="font-size: small;">n and everyday story. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><i>It's <span style="font-size: small;">a little too sweet for me now, <span style="font-size: small;">too sweet unt<span style="font-size: small;">il i feel like <span style="font-size: small;">hav<span style="font-size: small;">ing</span> d<span style="font-size: small;">iabetes haha.. </span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">But <span style="font-size: small;">the ending part thoughtfully plays reader<span style="font-size: small;"> f<span style="font-size: small;">eeling,</span></span></span> <span style="font-size: small;">out of prediction<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> thus</span> makes<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b> </b></span><b>Paradoks</b></span><b> has its <span style="font-size: small;">special.</span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><b> </b><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">The descr<span style="font-size: small;">ipt<span style="font-size: small;">ion of <span style="font-size: small;">place is well-writt<span style="font-size: small;">en and deliver<span style="font-size: small;"> the proper image in reader mind.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Personally i fave<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>part where Raisa<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">listed</span> her future boyfriend as someone with </span>silly rainbow wig<span style="font-size: small;"> and </span>different colour eyes, <span style="font-size: small;">plays</span> guitar, masters <span style="font-size: small;">five </span>languages, speaks like Spongebob<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>I can't stop imagining Karis on t<span style="font-size: small;">hat.</span></i> </span> </span></span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;">Last but not least, for me "Paradoks" is worth to buy, worth to complete your love collection.<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">Wor<span style="font-size: small;">th the smiles, happiness, hopes and faiths <span style="font-size: small;">after reading it<span style="font-size: small;"> for only 5.8$.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Enjoy! </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I'm sooooo proud to have Paradoks</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: magenta;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I'<span style="font-size: small;">m sooooo<span style="font-size: small;"> proud of u, <b><u>May</u></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-80359560495370563972012-11-25T17:08:00.000+07:002012-12-28T14:25:05.303+07:00 I don't really exist.<div style="color: #666666;">
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Aren't we supposed to be together as a team? </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">In sadness or happiness.<br /> That's what they told me, will always be there for me. </span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"U've got our back"</span></span></b></div>
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> Am I missinterpretating? Am I too naïve?<br /> Where are they? Fading constantly away by time.<br />Where are they? Frozing still.</span><br /> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I prefer not to complain with any bad situations. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I prefer not to share details whatever I should face daily. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">As I appreciate our own choices in life. As I believe this is my life lessons. <u>As I love them.</u></span></span><u><span style="color: #666666; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></u><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /><br /> <span style="font-size: large;"><b>I don't really exist.</b></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <b>I only exist to face and solve our problems, alone.</b><br /> <span style="color: #6aa84f;">I'm a silent problem solver.</span><br style="color: #6aa84f;" /><span style="color: #6aa84f;"> I'm a silent super woman.</span><br style="color: #6aa84f;" /><span style="color: #6aa84f;"> I'm a silent automatic teller machine.</span></span><br />
<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">But it's too far..</span><br /> <b>They take me for granted</b>.<br /> They come to me with their problems, ask for helps, in need for money.<br /> They leave me when they have their own happiness. Busy with their own life, have errands to do related to their future.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">They comp<span style="font-size: small;">lain</span> their own <span style="font-size: small;">life<span style="font-size: small;"> i</span>s<span style="font-size: small;"> already hard. <i>As mine isn't</i></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">.</span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">They have their excuses.<i> While I don't.</i><br /> They tend to act like stormy season is over and I'm okay with this.<i> As I never complain.</i><br /> They tend to forget -all the time- that stormy season isn't yet over.</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"></span><br /></i></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<u><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Being selfish <span style="font-size: small;">and</span> ignorant <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">is</span> <span style="font-size: small;">their</span> choic<span style="font-size: small;">e.</span></span></span></i></span></i></span></u><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Do I need to remind over and over again?<br />Do I need to ask for help even they never really care?</i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">In the end, <b>my and our problems are mine</b>.</span></span><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> In the end, <b>my feeling is sacrified for ours </b>while ur feeling is only yours.</span><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> In the end, <b>my care is needed for ours</b> while ur care is only yours.</span><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> In the end, <b>my life is dedicated for ours</b> while ur life is only yours.</span><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> In the end, whatever it is, I will still be here? Still be okay? Still stand strong?</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Dear them, listen...</i><br /> I have my ego, I have my feeling, I have my brain, I have my dream, I have my personal life that I want to live in MINE</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">. </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> Trying to be tough is not always aligned <span style="font-size: small;">with</span> 'everything is already fine'.<br /> Trying to be tough is a choice.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <b><span style="color: #6aa84f;">" I simply drag myself into toughness even if I'd never be ready.</span></b></span><b><br style="color: #6aa84f;" /><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> I simply human and I can feel my heart is in hurts.</span></b></blockquote>
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<b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> I simply swear that i'll make this through, with myself.</span><br style="color: #6aa84f;" /><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> I simply lose my faith that one day u'll start supporting me "</span></b></blockquote>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <b>My lost. <span style="font-size: large;">Also theirs.</span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-54609414308603186572012-11-17T21:36:00.001+07:002012-12-27T13:40:49.377+07:00Mr. and Mrs. Dean<blockquote class="tr_bq">
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I'm not in love literally to someone *and this is not my stories*</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> But I'm in love to minutes i reminisce how good people can be together, as a married couple. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> I never expected that I'd ever met a couple like them, in Singapore, where majority I met were more individual-unloving married couple (or family). </span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Well, mind my own perspective.</span></i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> My works as an architect <span style="font-size: x-small;">(that time I was working there)</span> got me long list of client-meeting.<br /> <span style="font-size: x-small;">I used to get unappropriate yet rude manner from most of clients, mostly Singaporean.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I first met them as one of my client, and i did prepare myself for another cold staring eyes, some usual cold welcome.<br /> When I walked out the lift, the door of the house was already opened then I stepped closer and heard calming voice </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">"Hi, please come in.." with her sincere smile.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">She continued "So..u are Yana?", shook my hand<span style="font-size: small;">, </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">"Please urself miss, just sit down anywhere u want.. What do u want for drinks?". </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>I was amazed with a very well welcome I've ever had. I was amazed in silent.</b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Wait, maybe it's just the start. Be prepared for reality, remind me to myself.</i></span><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> </span></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">We started the meeting after. They listened carefully to my presentation, asked an advice for their house, had a big tolerance to my poor english.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">They were TOTALLY polite.</span></b><br /> There was a moment when the husband tried explaining his imagination to me, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">"U mean the cabinet is this big?"<br /> He thus widen his hands then his palm hit his wife forehead who was sitting right behind him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <i>*I couldn't hold my grin at those moment*</i><br /> The husband then quickly said sorry then suddenly-literally KISS her forehead for like 2 seconds. <u>In front of me</u>.<br /> The wife then stared blushly to her husband and smiled. <i>Who wouldn't?</i><br /> <b style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">They were so SWEET.</span></b> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Then the meeting still strolled til a little girl with pony-tail arrived, just got back from primary school I guess.<br /> "Hallo dear, how's ur day? Have u eat ur lunch?", the wife kissed those girl cheeks and waited for her reply. "I'm tired mommy...I eat already", her face was sad. The wife tried to cheer her up by hugging and shaking the body. The little girl smiled. "Go change ur clothes dear... u have piano course at 4, remember?"<br /> I suddenly felt happy to capture that moment. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Comfortable to be there out of my expectation, found myself relax and enjoyed the meeting.<br /> <b>I started admiring to this married couple that day.</b><br /> <span style="color: #666666; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>U can feel the feel. The warmness and chemistry between them. Those eyes stare and blushy smile tells the truth, even for strangers</i></span><br /><br /> The next few months as the project was running, I met them few times a week and got closer to</span><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b> </b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>Mr. Mezz Dean and Mrs. Renee Dean</b>.<br /> They were in their 40's but they looked much younger than their age. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Mrs. Dean often said "Happy, exercise and healthy food keeps us young"<br /> They met as colleagues in insurance company when they were 28th, and got married two years later.<br /> Mr. Dean is half Malaysian, half Singaporean, tall and fit posture, quite handsome, funny<br /> Mrs. Dean is real Singaporean <i>(the nicest,ever)</i>, tiny and slim posture, pretty and forever young face, stylish, own a super positive aura, like to laugh loudly<br /><br /> The next, next, next, next, next meeting...</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <b style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">They never changed, the same way I look at them on my first.</span></b><br /> <b>I always bring back some good energy after meeting them. </b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>I always bring back smile.</b><br /> <b style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">They are my most adorable couple I've ever met in my life. </span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">They're, still, in love, after more than 10years marriage. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">They still express "love", <span style="font-size: x-small;">that mostly gone or forgotten</span></span><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> Still holding hands while walking<br /> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Still talking like best friend</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Still cheek-kissing</span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Still respecting each other<br /> Still dating in a car<br /> Still doing unusual things on married couple, such as husband opens car door or carries heavy stuff, offer others tissue, shade others on hot-sunny day with umbrella, keep their old memorable things, wear couple polo shirt, say "u're so handsome" or "all the best honey"</i><br /> <b style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="color: magenta;">They care and support each other as <u>best-friend</u>, discuss nicely-appreciate each other opinion-build a good communication as a <u>partner</u>, solid rock as <u>parents</u>, warm and happy as a <u>family</u>, live in love as <u>lifetime spouses</u>.</span></b><br /> They might not be as perfect as I might see as outsiders. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">But <b>I still admire them, til today</b><br /><br /> The very last time I met them, I was sad.</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="font-size: x-small;">I was decided to resign from the company so we wouldn't meet anymore.</span><br /> My eyes were teary telling Mrs. Dean that I'm going to leave Singapore.<br /> She put her hands on my shoulder, stared into my eyes and said </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">"U're a good person, Yana. Glad to have met u as my architect and I thank you for everything. Anything that u might have in ur future, all the very best. Keep in touch, don't take me as ur client but as ur friend. Take care dear..."</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">She said the warmest good bye, thank you and good luck.<br /> <i>I didn't design ordinary people house, but my fave family home.</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">And I still define times when I met them as one of the moment I truly thankful to happen in my life.<br /> <b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">A truly inspiring couple. A fairytale kind of family, </span><u style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">does exist</u><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">.</span></b><br /><b><br /> </b>And I will <span style="font-size: small;">b</span>e one, <span style="font-size: large;">one day </span>:D</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-58146186926451855442012-11-09T22:03:00.000+07:002012-12-04T19:02:52.531+07:00Dear Shannon<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>9July morning</i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Out of doctor's expectation, u surprised everyone being </i></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>2weeks in advance</i></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>.<br /> When I arrived in the hospital, u also arrived in this world.<br /> Tiny with wrinkled-red skin and still closed eyes.</i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Crying not loudly, but cutely. </i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Weight 2.5kg and 49cm long, then hospital nurse placed u in UV-warming box. </i></span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Glad that u're growing, stronger, smarter and healthier each day.</span></b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b> </b></span><br />
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fave to call u as <i>ulet</i> (it's caterpillar in English) as u look alike into :p.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Ur hands and ur thighs are segmented, and it's so cuteeee..</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>"Like daughter, like dad" </b></span></div>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Not only look-alike face, *<span style="font-size: x-small;">I was told by ur mom</span>* u also have the same sleeping position with ur dad. <br /> U have many positions to sleep, like an adults. Left hand/right hand/ both touching ur head or ur cheeks, rolling to left/right side and hugging small pillow.<br /> U have ur ontime alert when to drink ur milk. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">U put ur sad face then cry whenever u're hungry. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">U like to hear people sing. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">U like to respond to people who play or talk to u. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">U like red toys. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">U like to be carried with baby-sling and fall asleep. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: large;"><b>Dear Shannon,</b></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: #999999;">[maybe few years from now]</span> </span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Be thankful to have parents who love u very much, care of ur needs, wake up in middle of night, change diaper when it's time, hug u when u cry, sing&play with u when u're bored, feed u with milk (yet,cereal) when u're hungry and </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">prepare further for ur future</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Be thankful to have a mom who put her best effort to keep u healthy in her 36weeks pregnanc<span style="font-size: small;">y</span>, to deliver u normally and suffer all the pain, give u an exclusive 6months ASI, </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">don't mind her tiredness after work to comfort u, always do her best for u <i>*and i believe she will always do*</i></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Be thankful to be bornt in a good and safe environment to grow, a welcome surrounding, a loving big families, a good home</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Be thankful for life. for every breath, for every step, for every lesson that happened, is happening, will happen to u. <i>never take it for granted</i></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Be thankful of being u, the whole package of u, now or later </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: small;">A </span><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">little old wise one</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> A bless for family and friend, God grace</span><br style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> A lotus flower,</span></span><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: small;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">always clean and pure (even if) against the dirty pond.</span></div>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> Love u so, now and always</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> Auntie Ulen</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-57488205921694788912012-11-07T01:49:00.000+07:002013-02-22T21:14:35.911+07:00Love turns people insane<blockquote class="tr_bq">
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: black;">(1) right and good love insanity</span></span></span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"> right means u're having this love insanity </span></span></span></i><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"><u>when u are single or not in any commitment with someone</u></span></span></span></b><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;">, ie: flirting, falling head over heels over someone</span></span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"> good means u don't play with someone's heart and feeling, with or without purpose</span></span></span></i><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: black;">(2) wrong and bad love insanity</span></span></span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"> wrong means u're (intentionally or unintentionally) having this love insanity </span></span></span></i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"><u><b>when u are in a relationship or commited with someone</b></u><i>, ie: having an affair, cheating, flirting and friendzoning</i><i> </i></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"><i> bad means u play with someone's heart and feeling, defend it with any excuses *most of the time*, with or without purpose</i></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Which one happen mostly?</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><strike>right and good love insanity </strike></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">NO. the wrong and bad love insanity.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Let's take a look carefully..</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">"how many times in our daily life we heard A is falling head over heels into B?"</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">"how many times in our daily life we heard C is cheating with D even D is in a relationship (vice versa), or E is friendzoning F while E is engaged to G (vice versa), or H is the third party between J and K?"</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: black;">Don't know why lately this wrong-and-bad-love-insanity seems like a trend. Maybe as the
world goes open-minded then having opposite gender labelled as bestfriend is
normal, then some misused or misinterpretated it by being too close like a couple with bestfriend status is also
normal?</span></span></i></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Us, people simply </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">don't admit or </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">don't realize or don't try to realize when they're in a wrong-and-bad-love insanity.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">1. <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"I have no choice, this feeling just happen..new B suddenly steps into my life and i like to be with him.....</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I'm sorry for old A but i can't leave him either, </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">he's my boyfriend"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>Do we ever realize that we always and always have choices in our life? <br />The remote control is OURS, not others</b></span></div>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">The least we have are </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: large;">"</span><span style="font-size: large;">Accept it</span> or <span style="font-size: large;">Change it</span> or <span style="font-size: large;">Leave it"</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">**remember to choose one, dont blabber u have no choice dear</span><span style="font-size: x-small;">**</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><i>Accept it</i> </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Take a brave decision, go with the flow of ur current feeling, be with new B and leave old A, <i>or</i></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><i></i></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <i>Change it</i> Hold onto ur commitment with old A by easing away ur feeling towards new B, have</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> some </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">crystal-clear </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">distant and </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">a bold line between u and new B, <i>or</i></span><i><span style="color: black;"> </span></i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><i>Leave it </i></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Let it happen the way it is, secretly pamper urself with both. Flirting with new B (or label his as ur bestfriend) and <u>still</u> in a relationship with old A </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">So,is it universe's fault to destine it happen or is it <b>OUR CHOICE</b>?</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>tips</i>, </span><span style="font-size: x-small;">don't just be with someone because u afraid of being lonely. When u do this, u'll find someone whom u really into when u're in a relationship with someone else.</span></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> U hurt people when u wash away commitment.</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br style="color: black;" /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> Imagine other side pain before being irrational. What if the person who said it is ur spouse, "Honey, I fall into someone else. I can't hold it, just happen. Sorry, I have to be with her"</span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">. DANG!!!</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> 2.</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"He's just my best friend...impossible that he likes me"</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">**he refers to opposite gender of attraction, might be replaced to she** </span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">For minor cases, yes this is true. There are few pure friendship between a woman and a man.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">But major happens another way..</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">So if u are in a relationship or commited to someone and u insist to have this 'too close best-boy-friend'</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Most of the time, we'll be too subjective, stubborn insisting that "it's still considered normal", <i>while it is not.</i> </span></span><br />
<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Thus, this is </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">prime time to hear closest friends and-or family opinion, person who care about u will advise u objectively and keep u going on right track.<i> </i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><i>don't we experience it?</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: large;">Human has ego where we always want more</span> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">for some reason, some time, somehow, one is just not enough.</span></span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">But our
heart is designed to fit only one heart.</span></span></i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><i> </i></span></span><br />
<b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">H</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">aving a main-course boyfriend completed with a dessert best-boy-friend is definitely life delicacy, not forgetting, <u>also a life trap</u></span></span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><i>Just like Adam was tempted to bite an apple even when he knew he wasn't supposed to</i></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Human intend to forget their limit.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Human intend to plant bad karma seed. </span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Human intend to realize their mistake, after.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Personally,</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">it's <strike>possible</strike> <b>impossible</b> to have a boyfriend and too close best-boy-friend in the same time. <b>Choose</b>, then prior one.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">**What if to have a boyfriend and best-girl-friend in the same time? it's <strike>impossible</strike> possible as it doesn't involve opposite gender attraction and chances
of fallinginlove to only one person, boyfriend**</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>tips</i>, go ahead creating great memories with ur best-boy-friend <b>as u like when u're single. </b>But then when u are in a relationship, appreciate ur relationship with ur boyfriend and get appropriate distant with ur best-boy-friend</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">- treat ur best-boy-friend as ur best friend, only, not more.</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br style="color: black;" /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> - not to tag him and his time as yours</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br style="color: black;" /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> - not to be with him all the time, more than ur time with ur boyfriend</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">- not to act or joke cheesy-sweety-bunny as if u're a couple</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br style="color: black;" /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">- not to be jealous or cranky when he's with another girl</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">- set the clear line between u both.</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br style="color: black;" /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> - have <b><u>NO FEELING, no flirting at all for both party</u></b></span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br style="color: black;" /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> - stop listing excuses to explain ur status with him</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">- stop doing any silly thing to ease ur guilty</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">- stop texting everyday and waiting for his reply</span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">- never ever have any intimate physical contact, in reality or in ur dream. Bestfriend have no lust dear.</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br style="color: black;" /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">- never ever be in a forever friendzoning, get a life!</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;">If u can't strictly hold into these appropriate distant with ur best-boy-friend, then</span><span style="font-size: large;"> <b style="color: red;">UNFRIEND HIM NOW.</b></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: red;"> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></b></span></div>
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end, either u hurt ur boyfriend or ur best-boy-friend and also urself. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>so u hit at least 2 birds down with one stone, huh?</i></span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> Get a firm decision as <b>hurting people is never right</b>. </span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">If u think that ur boyfriend is the one and u truly love him then appreciate him by knowing ur limit with ur best-boy-friend. Put boyfriend as ur first class priority<span style="font-size: x-small;"> **well, if u really love him u won't intentionally and conciously hurting him ;)**</span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">*wanna read others experience? here's link for <a href="http://friendzonewall.com/2012/03/17/hello-world/" target="_blank">friendzone wall</a> telling real stories-real experiences-real sharings of how they start-do-dwell with friendzoning, with or without purpose*</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><br /> </span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-26724634619902881662012-10-17T22:45:00.001+07:002012-12-27T13:45:36.723+07:00Annyeong 안녕 하세요.~ SMTown INA<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Annyeong </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">~~~~~<br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> I super-like Korea. I'm addicted to Korean drama series, love Korean style, imitate spoiled-sweet voice "Oppaaa..." (read: U-paaa)</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Korea 2010 was one of my 'dream come true'.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <i>But actually I am not Korean song freak. Seriously. Then why I watch this concert?</i> <b>CURIOUS :D</b>. I simply curios to see</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> 1. Girl's Generation in 3D. Are they really that perfect? Pretty,sexy,good voice?</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> 2. <span style="font-size: small;">Supe<span style="font-size: small;">r Junior</span></span>. Are they that handsome like in their v<span style="font-size: small;">ideo </span>clips?</span></span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><u>Chronology of the day:</u></span><u><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></u><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">(1pm)</span>, arrive at GBK.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> The crowd is crazy, the sun is hot, the pavement is full of souvenir<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>seller, outside food/drink/professional camera aren't allowed when we step into gate entrance.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">(1.30-3.30pm)</span>, q-ing at tribune 3A gate.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> The line is getting long and compact, the sun is still hot, some people use glasses, papers, towels, umbrellas to cover their almost burn head, media is everywhere.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">(3.30-4pm)</span>, start going in, get our 'un-numbered' seat.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> People start pushing. My body is kissing front-back-right-left person next to me. Lack of oxygen, some faint or having their ashma attack.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">(4.30pm)</span>, FINALLY sit after running in rush for 3storeys.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">(6.30pm)</span>, the concert starts. Yeyyyyyy..</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> The stadium, stage&TV panel are so big</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> The sound system, lighting, waterfall& firework effect, the closure are awesome</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> The audiences are super great. They sing 90% of the song, scream like crazy, knock their official long balloon soundly, response well to all singers chitchat part.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <b>I salute them. </b></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> I personally don't know most of the songs, except for Suju&SNSD.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">The whole stadium enjoy the night..with their idol. <i>Like there's no other time.</i></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <b>In a moment, we're all merging ONE as fans. </b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">We all sing, have our own happy moment, yell out loud when ur idol smile, swing our hand with light stick to one direction, jump up the floor, kiss ur idol from far, picture the moment.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">(10.00pm)</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">, the concert is over.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">All I can say is I'm GLAD to have SMTown as my first ;).</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> First experience, first impression, good one.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> 550 thousand rupiah is worth to pay</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>My curiousity answered</i></span></span></span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></i></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> 1. <span style="color: #e06666;">Girl generation is a real pretty,sexy, with good voice</span>, esp when they sing "B-bring the boys out.. Girl's generation make u feel the heat...." *with they sexy moves and of course short-pants*</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> 2. <span style="color: #e06666;">No doubt for Siwon!! He's damn handsome</span>. I also fall for <span style="color: #e06666;">DongHae, he looks so friendly&cheerful</span></span></i><span style="color: black;"><i> <span style="font-size: x-small;">Saranghae oppa :p</span></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: black;">Gomaweo!!!!!</span></b></span> Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-90267669009987527412012-10-15T00:40:00.000+07:002013-02-18T13:47:27.180+07:00Goal before 30<span style="color: #666666;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">We all have goal in our life. One or hundred. Small or big. Clear or unclear. Period or forever.</span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #666666;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><b>Me also </b></span>:). </span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #666666;"><i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> Read it many times that I, we, should announce it loudly to the world, send vibration to Universe, play the imagination movies in ur mind, have faith, work hard then work smart.</span></i></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /><br /> And just to remind me to keep going forward to achieve my short-term goals, dreams, the person I wanna be </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">before I'm 30, <span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="color: red;"><b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: large;">here are mine</span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></b><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;">*in random*</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">5. Find my gentleman ;), GO TO PARIS and feel my romantism moment<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"> around eif<span style="font-size: small;">fel tower haha</span></span></span></span></span></b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: blue;"><b>8. Successfully happy-ing myself, do feel BEAUTIFUL inside-out :)</b></span></span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> About 4years to go<br /> <span style="color: magenta; font-size: x-large;"><b>F I G H T I N G !!!</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">How many times in our daily life, we think that we're on the edge of the world. Lower than ever. Touch bottom line of life, hit our limit, and sink into the ground..</span><br /> Yeah, we think that we are. Many many times.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>But then, when u have another box of problem-desperate-stress another time, u'll think again. Ouch no, now I am in the bottom-est.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Had an extra stressful job back then in Singapore, lost my happiness, dissapointed on <span style="font-size: small;">someone close</span>, family financial difficulties.<br /> That time, I really thought I was about to fall, I ha<span style="font-size: small;">d</span> no life to be grateful of <span style="font-size: small;">then</span> I cursed God "why u put me here? I can't do it, this is my lowest level"<br /> <b style="color: black;">2011-2012</b></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">My dad passed away after super-drained efforts, broken-apart family, financially collapsed, got sudden new responsibilities for dad role, ran family business and stopped my architect-freelance job, got infected by viral disease.<br /> I fell-crawl-fell-crawl-fell several times.<br /> I swore to God "this is my lowest level in my life".<br /> <b style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">My life was a TOTAL HELL.<br /> My life was a COMPLETE BULLSHIT.</b><br style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;" /><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"> </span><b style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I kissed the ground. I thought so.</b><br /> I hit my bottom line, I bumped-fell-dragged along the ground.<br /> I cried almost everynight at first, then twice a week, then once a week, then twice a month, then once a month on pms, then once in a while.<br /> <u>I was a total desperate woman in her 26</u><br /> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Painful huh?</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="color: black; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">But wait...</b></span><b style="color: black; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"> </b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b><br style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;" /><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"> How the hell I'm still here, okay?</span></b><br /> Come to now, I relook-rethink-rewind and really feel it.<br /> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: #666666;">*yet i still amaze with this little truth*</span></span></span><br />
<strike style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: black; font-size: small;">My life was a TOTAL HELL.<br />
My life was a COMPLETE BULLSHIT.<br />
I kissed the ground. I thought so.</span></strike><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><strike> </strike></span><b style="color: red;"><br /> </b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: red; font-size: large;">I didn't kiss the ground, I only smell it.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> As just right BEFORE I kiss the ground, <i>hands come</i>.</span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">To keep on going in life, good or bad. To move bravely to face our shiny future<br /> To stand tallest-biggest-longest to our dreams. To have faith.<br /> <b style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">And I guess this is how universe works.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"> My life is a COMPLETE PLACE TO LEARN "</span></b></span></blockquote>
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></span></b><i style="color: black;">Universe will never let us kiss it, we only smell.<br /> Smell that will never be forgotten<br /> Smell that will grow us better<br /> Smell that will open our hear<span style="font-size: small;">t<span style="font-size: small;">, our </span></span>mind wider<br /> Smell that will complete our two sides life series<br /> Smell that will fragrance our lessons<br /> Smell that SUCK<span style="font-size: small;"> </span>at first and SWEET at last</i><br /><br /> I had, <u>yet</u>, my biggest lesson.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> Smacked down, probably <b>an inch away</b> to the ground.<br /> The smell that probabl<span style="font-size: small;">y </span>put<span style="font-size: small;"> a</span> deep scar in m<span style="font-size: small;">e</span>.<br /> The smell that is strong and memorable.<br /> I still sick of it sometimes. But i keep believing</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">Universe never sleeps, never loses their eyes on u</span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">Universe never comes too late...</span><br /> Whatever it was, it is...<br /> <b><span style="color: red;">HANG ON</span></b>, guys.<br /> U and I will go through this.<br /> We'll make it. <b style="color: black;">BELIEVE.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> You will when you believe"</span> <span style="font-size: xx-small;">, When you believe - Whitney Houston</span></span></blockquote>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-6247362758867213222012-08-07T23:00:00.006+07:002012-10-17T22:59:21.141+07:00God's piece of cake<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">He is my hi-school friend, we were close as he used to borrow all assignments, notes, everything related to school thingy. He's smart but lazy :p. We weren't talk deeply before, we only said jokes to one another. We lost contact for few years, til we start to meet again around last year</span><br /><br /> <span style="color: #6fa8dc;">Feb 2012</span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">He BBM me and asked <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"How's ur life"</span>, my answer <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"I'm quite okay, so far still good".</span> </span><br />
<i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I am introvert, I am introvert, I'll keep it myself.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: #6fa8dc;">July 2012</span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">He BBM me again and asked "<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">How's ur life?u popped in my mind while i was meditating yesterday"</span>, my answer <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"I'm not okay"</span>. </span><br />
<i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">What the hell with introvert, i can't hold it anymore..</span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">He asked me to meet up.<br /> The day we met, first half hour I still smiled. The next two and half hour I cried. I told him stories, how I felt about my current life, how I feel cursed without choice for my own-life. I was unhappy, had unease days, no passion, depressed, lost hope, full of anger and pain, etc, etc, etc.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> He listened. Only listened.<br /> <b style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I asked him two "why should me?" and "why should now?"</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <span style="color: red;">"</span><b style="color: red; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Why should u?"</b> </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Because if not u, then WHO? U know exactly that there's nobody else...</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Take this as a gift, and i believe that u CAN</span></span></b>.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">You have a genuine heart to do this</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>Maybe ur life is meant to be this, </b><i>not only helping urself but also helping others</i></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">And it starts by helping ur own family</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: red; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>"Why should now?"</b></span><span style="color: red;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Because anyway u won't ever be ready as u're scared, ur comfort zone is taken now.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>As i know u, u're a sistematic and under-control person, it makes u crazy when things happen out of ur control even if u try not to.</i> </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>It's good to happen now,</b> as u have a bunch time and long journey to accomplish it in ur whole life. </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">U know what....i don't feel sympathy to u with all of this, I feel HAPPY for u!</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Why?<b style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> I know the ending is gonna be <span style="font-size: large;">great</span>, and u must go through this step to reach those ending.</b> In the end everything's gonna be alright. </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: large;">U're NOT alone</span></b> at least u have me as brother.. don't worry, <b>HAVE FAITH</b>"<br /> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>He definitely touched my heart.</i></span><br /> <span style="font-size: x-small;">Then he continued</span><br /> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"Maybe in of ur prayers, u asked God/whatever u call it, someone to help u and he did sent me to u"</span>. <u>I did ask universe for it.</u> My mouth was zippered.<br /><br /> I did one thing that night.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: magenta; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: x-large;"><b>ACCEPTANCE</b><b>.</b></span> only</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I accept that dad has to rest in heaven thus i take his role here.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I accept that shitty things happen for whatever reason for me, now or later.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I accept whatever life has given me in life, good or bad.<br /> Somehow I started feeling positive since that day. I feel alright. </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"If this is all I should do then DO, wholeheartedly, it happens for reason"</span>, told me to myself.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <i><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">And I thank u Amrit for meeting me that night.</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> I had the biggest learning in life, yet.</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> U slapped me right :)</span></i><br /><span style="font-size: large;"><br /> </span><b><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: large;">"<span style="font-size: small;">Yesterday i was clever, so I wanted to change the world.</span> </span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: large;">Today I am wise, so I am changing myself"<span style="font-size: small;">, rumi</span></span></span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /></b><br /> The next morning, he sent me this beautiful message that I wanna share with u all, remember this:</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"> </span><br />
<span style="background-color: #3d85c6; font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">God’s piece of cake </span><span style="color: #6fa8dc;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span></span></b></span><span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /> <span style="color: #3d85c6;">This is about the best thing I've ever read as an explanation.</span><br style="color: #3d85c6;" /><span style="color: #3d85c6;"> Sometimes we wonder,</span></span><span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /> 'What did I do to deserve this?' or 'Why did God have to do this to me?'<br /> Here is a wonderful explanation!<br /> A daughter is telling her Mother how everything<br /> is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend<br /> broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.<br /> Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and<br /> asks her daughter if she would like d snack, and the<br /> daughter says, 'Absolutely Mom, I love your cake.'<br /> 'Here, have some cooking oil,' her Mother offers.<br /> 'Yuck' says her daughter.<br /> 'How about a couple raw eggs?' 'Gross, Mom!'<br /> 'Would you like some flour then?<br /> Or maybe baking soda?'<br /> 'Mom, those are all yucky!'<br /> To which the mother replies:<br /> 'Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves.<br /> But when they are put together in the<br /> right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! '<br /> God works the same way. Many times we wonder why<br /> He would let us go through such bad and difficult<br /> times. But God knows that when He puts these things<br /> all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful!<br /> God is crazy about you.<br /> He sends you flowers every spring and<br /> a sunrise every morning.<br /> Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen.<br /> <span style="font-size: small;"><b>He can live anywhere in the universe,</b></span><span style="font-size: small;"><br /> <b>and He chose your heart.</b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> I met my first Guru. It started with </span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <b>"There's no such a coincidence, u're here because u meant to be here"</b></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> It continued normally until he asked: "Who feels that something is missing in ur life?", and he pointed at me out of around 30peoples in that room</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"What's missing in ur life miss?"</span></b></span></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Somehow I knew he'd call me and I was freaking out. My mind kept asking how come he knows? My heart thumped and my words just went out</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "My health......"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Anything else?"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "My happiness...... My job........", and I started tearing.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I can see a lot of sadness in ur heart dear"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <i>I was shaken.</i></span></span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">How it rolled-coaster my emotion. </span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">How it let go my anger, sadness, pain.</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">How it opened my eyes. </span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">How it opened my heart and let love comes in.</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">How it self-empowered and motivated me. </span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">How it flipped me back to "positive me", in any circumstances. </span></span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I forgive Dad to leave us, to leave all to me. </span></b> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">I let u go, I sincerely let u go to place u should be. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Have a super duper happy and peaceful life there</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I forgive everyone who dissapointed, hurted and drilled a hole to my heart.</span></span><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <i>My jaw almost drop firstly i heard it but then I understand. </i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">The reason why those people exist in my life is<b> A L E S S O N</b></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Let all be only memories that I learned and grew from.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> I only get stronger and better.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I forgive everything that happened.</span></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Let times lead me to any other reasons behind it. Sure I'll find. A good one.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I forgive myself.</span> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">I did my best, all I could.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> I stop blaming, stop feeling guilty when I lose control. I'm human and human make mistakes and it's okay.</span><br style="color: black;" /><br style="color: #6aa84f;" /><span style="color: #6aa84f;"> </span></span><span style="color: #f1c232; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">ACCEPTANCE</b></span><b style="color: #f1c232; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"> </b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I accept life, whatever comes in my way, good or bad.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> Life is beautiful when we embrace everything in our life with smile.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> I go my best to fill my heart with love. Not with anger, hate, envy, dissapointment, sadness.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> I'm happying myself as I shall to.</span><br style="color: black;" /><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> </span></span><span style="color: #f1c232; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">THANKFULNESS</b></span><b style="color: #f1c232; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"> </b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Thank him, Umesh, for bringing ME back</span>.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">To the divine direction where I start learning from myself, getting answer within, moving forward positively and courageously.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Experiencing the most peaceful moment, full of love energy.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Realizing that I'll never walk alone. I have my soldiers with me ;)</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Loving, forgiving, healing myself and every-self. <span style="font-size: small;">Especially letting dad go </span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">*he really was there, hugged me*</span></span><span style="color: black;"></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Thank life for my existence here, all the bless i have.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">The chances to let Ulen born as a human, grow in a good environment with amazing parents, comfortable lives, surround by wonderful peoples with </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">abundance joy, love and teaching</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">, </span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">healthy body, and all happy moments </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Thank myself to meet my body, soul, spirit personally and conciously. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">Lately ,ever since I turned to 24 or maybe earlier, people started to question simply because my age is considered as ready to get married.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> When I attend relatives or friends wedding, when I go to mall and coincidentally meet old friend, when I post my perspective about being single happy in twitter or facebook. And probably after publishing this blog.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i> "Hi.."</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i> "Where is ur boyfriend? R u coming here alone?"</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i> "Oh, I'm coming with friends.. I don't have boyfriend"</i></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i> *with almost burst-out eyeballs*</i></span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i> </i></span></b><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">"Whyyyy are u still single? U're lying right? And Oh.. Maybe u're too picky.. Nobody's perfect, umm maybe u set ur standard way too high"</span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i> ".........."</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">I start to just put my plain fake smile to whoever ask me this question.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: #666666; font-size: large;"><b>Seriously, what's wrong?</b></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> What's wrong with single while this is my life and me, the owner, am okay with it.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> I do feel like kick out of community whom most of them are couple, engaged, married or even had kids.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> I do feel like an alien who is still single in my "marriage-age" in my country. <i>I'm still way too young to get married in some other country though.</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> I do feel like people tend to interfere my personal-life where I feel alright.</span></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: black;">And I'm bored, yet sick being asked for the same question.</span></span></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> we hear it so many times, yet most of people seem to forget. That everything has their own timing.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b style="color: red;">My time and yours might be different.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> *If u met your one already, before ur marriage age, then be grateful for it and great. I'm sincerely happy for u, u're blessed.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> * If u haven't met your one yet, <u>even ur marriage age is ticking</u>, then be happy with ur present moment and great. Our bless just haven't arrived. But it WILL.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Nothing is wrong.</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I enjoy time while I still can have my me time. Do whatever I want to do while I don't have futher responsibilities that I might have later. Grow and challenge my ownself even better while I have an opportunity.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">From some friends stories, I realize that are some perception like: </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">1. Being single causes unhappiness in life. I'm telling u it doesn't always come that way.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b><span style="color: red;">Being <span style="font-size: large;">single</span> also causes lots happiness in life.</span></b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> It depends on how we see it. <i>Just like any other things in life.</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b>Happiness obtained within ourself, with or without someone else, single or in a relationship. </b><i>Your status in relationship doesn't define how happy u are.</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;">"in a relationship" doesn't always mean happier than "single" (vice versa)</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"Be happy with urself, get ur own life </span></b></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><b style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">first</span></b></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><b style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> then share it"</span></b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> 2. Being happy single is the same as choosing to be forever alone and perfectly don't need any spouse in life. it ISN'T. All I can say is don't get things mixed. </span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: small;">We all human have social needs.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">We'd like to have someone to lean on, to share with, to love and to be loved.</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> We'd like to make our dream wed come true, wear wedding gown, walk in aisle vowing together with our lifetime partner.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> We'd like to build our own little family for the rest of life.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> We'd like to grow old together with someone, not alone.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> We'd like to be someone special in someone else's life.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b>And even a <span style="font-size: small;">single</span>, dream about it. </b>We have right to accomplish it, one day. Get the point right.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">My close friends ever asked me: <i>"Don't u feel lonely being single for so long?"</i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">My answer is <i>"Yes..I do feel lonely, sometimes" </i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b><span style="background-color: blue; font-size: large;"><span style="color: white;">BUT</span></span><span style="color: blue;"> </span><span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">i simply wait for someone right to fill my loneliness. </span></b></span></span><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: small;">It's worth waiting for. It isn't worth rushing for.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> Not only with 'just anyone' who's coming in front of me now</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> Not only grab anyone who's interested to me and offer diamond</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> Not only because my mom think I should get married soon</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> Not only because all my friends are coupled or married</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> Not only because my marriage age.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Right person, right time, right place.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <i>It's a lifetime commitment dear, don't mess.</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"Be grateful for whatever given this time, be happy in all seasons"</span></b></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: black; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Falling in love with the person, NOT with the companionship</span></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #666666;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">, <a href="http://www.tinybuddha.com/" target="_blank">Tiny Buddha</a></span></span><span style="color: #666666; font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"> </span></span></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-56807156198334732882012-06-07T15:04:00.003+07:002013-02-26T21:03:56.519+07:00silly daughter<div style="color: black; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">
<b><span style="font-size: small;">Memories that</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I don't like to recall but neither I want to let go</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I don't like to tell but neither I want to keep</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I don't like to cry on but neither I want to smile on</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I don't like to be walked-off but neither I want to carry by </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b style="color: #e69138;">I'm confused daddy, I really am.</b></span></div>
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;">I want to be</span> <span style="color: #666666;">a silly daughter</span></span>; partying, drinking, crying and falling sleeping in couch.<i> The next day blaming life when things don't happen the way I want it to be.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;">I want to be</span> <span style="color: #666666;">a weak person</span></span>; everyone think that I can't make it so I won't be responsible for whatever it is. <i>Who's too fragile to handle anything til stress can get her does drink pills or bump into wall</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;">I want to be</span> <span style="color: #666666;">a super selfish girl</span></span>; pretend happily that nothing to be taken care of and hell with others. <i>I have my own life though.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;">I want to be</span> <span style="color: #666666;">a 'cant-stand-lonely' type</span></span>; who can get close just by anyone at that moment, get "in a relationship" easily and have a companion as what I really need.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I want to <span style="color: #666666; font-size: large;">just faint</span>; and when I awake, all I know is everything goes back to its place, <i>goes alright and nothing I have to deal with.</i></span></div>
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<i><b><span style="font-size: small;">But then I remember how good u had taught me. How u had known me.</span></b></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I've grown up enough to firmly know that I'm not a silly daughter, I'm not weak, I'm not that selfish and I'm idealist and I'm still here standing tall and tough the way u want me to, the way u wish me to be...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> Things, yes with (s),</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> Things I were taking for granted.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> And I only thank u now for whatever it were.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <i>Even it's late and maybe that's what my deepest little heart trying to repay.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I'm definitely more than "so stupid" to keep trying to do things right. To do things the way I should do. To stick on what my heart yells over my logic, eventhough things are sucks a lot and hard.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <i><b style="color: magenta;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">But, no matter how hard I tried to be positive and widen-up my heart for. </span></b></i></span><br />
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<i><b><span style="font-size: small;">I failed 95 from 100times.</span></b></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I'm broken here daddy, can't u see?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <b>It takes everything I have</b>.. My happiness, my health, my life, my dreams, can't u see?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> No matter how good I try, I'm falling apart and ready to fall thus never raise up again.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> Why don't u even help me?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <b style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="color: #e69138;">I'm desperated daddy, I really am.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Why coins should have its two sides rather than having only one?</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate two faces, <i>as that's all I see from some.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate when life feels so unfair to minor side.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate when life gives bless to those who do bad.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate when life takes side to money and power.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate when life makes me hate it even more</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> <b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Why should coins flipped any moment they like?</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I should have been warned, at least</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> or more prepared?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate when life fooled me around.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate their jokes now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate everything.</span></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-58745471628400315602012-06-07T14:39:00.003+07:002012-11-19T21:46:23.471+07:00to where her next<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Darling God, how good is she doing?</span></i><br /><br /> </span><b style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Oh to where her next...</span></i></span><i><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></span></i></b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> Blinded with this empty heart<br /> Heart that lost its owner<br /> Mind that starred to sad feeling. Unfocus on dreams, don't even have hope<br /> Body that tired and sick. Don't wanna get up<br /> Lost direction and not any part of it willing to understand</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">They run independently.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">They are angry.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> They dont care for each other.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> They ask for an answer and no answer</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> They put blame on life.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">-Bitching this moment, laying useless-</span></span></span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <b style="color: red;"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Oh to where her next...</span></i></b></span><b style="color: red;"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></span></i></b><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Trying to find behind life. </span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">-Called it meaning,purposes and so on</span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: #666666;">-</span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Trying to pretend stronger and better.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Trying to to accept changes.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Trying to let go.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Trying to love and be loved.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Trying to live each day like normal.</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Trying to hang on.</span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> <span style="color: orange;">Envying other</span></span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: orange; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> Who's life looking better and happier -- Going easy, only to think "next summer collection" or "where to spend money next holiday" -- Achieving progressively with their career, being succesful -- Stepping into further with their beloved, getting married and have kids</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <b style="color: red;"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Oh to where her next...</span></i></b></span><b style="color: red;"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></span></i></b><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <b>Will her be in heaven? </b>Or hell?</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b> Will her be pull herself through this? </b>Or stuck into?</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b> Will her be happy? </b>Or full of anger?</span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b> Will her be succesful? </b>Or ass-hole?</span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Darling God, grant her some direction</i></span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-21697077821582476342012-05-14T21:40:00.000+07:002012-12-28T14:26:40.807+07:00from 14years stalker<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Here's some cutey 26th bday quote from my 14years stalker ;p</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> <span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Let'sssss!!!!!</span></span></span> We celebrate this mature age!<br /> With all the foundation, anti-agying cream, cute accesorries by strawberry, so that we look:<br /> <b style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Y<br /> O<br /> U<br /> N<br /> G</b></span><br />
<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I hope....<i>(*cough*, I repeat)</i><br /> <b>I hopeeeeee u find a man that can be shelter for u tough lady who look likely don't need any man</b>. </span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">*awwwww...amen* </span></span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">May the gud one come to ur life. Bring so many new sweet stories, who colour your days, who makes u put on some make up, who makes u verrrrry excited to wake up in the morning to meet him.<br /> I wish the best also come to ur family *ur big family*<br /> May ur family be blessed alwayss..<br /> Hope that polemic can be solved, valid for other problems.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">*thank youuuu* </span></span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> May u can go back to ur passion as soon as possible..<br /> Anyway, marriage is for lifetime. <b style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><u><span style="color: red;">Single is only NOW</span></u></b>. Maximize it !!!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">It's golden time!</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">*hi-five single ladies..* </span></span></i><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /> Happy bday yaaa..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">Don't be sad of what happened, this brings u to the best of u.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: small;">" Remember the bad times before, it makes the present you. The good person.</span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-size: small;">The bad times now, it'll make the future you. The better person "</span></b></blockquote>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> <b>Don't be scared yahhh, u don't walk alone! ;)</b></span><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: small;"><br /> </span><br />
<i><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: small;">Thank u for being 'available' anytime. </span><b style="color: #38761d;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: small;"><br /> Lopelopemucho</span></b></i><br />
<b style="color: #38761d;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: small;">Dear <span style="font-size: large;">Mochiko.</span></span></b>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-89596204069122908222012-02-29T23:13:00.000+07:002012-11-10T02:14:57.891+07:00sweetest song, sent<div style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><b>From mom to dad</b></span></div>
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<i>"Tak pernah terpikir olehku </i><b style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[i've never thought]</b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>tak sedikit pun ku menyangka </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[not even once i imagined]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[that u'll go leaving me alone]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>begitu sulit ku menyangkal</i><i> </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[hard for me to deny]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>begitu sakit ku rasakan</i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> [that i'm in pain]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri</i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> [</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">u'll go leaving me alone</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>* di bawah batu nisan kini kau tlah sandarkan </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">under gravestone now u lay</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b></div>
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<i>kasih sayang kamu begitu dalam </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[your deepest love</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>sungguh ku tak sanggup ini terjadi </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[</span></b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>i can't face this happened</b></span></span><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>karna ku sangat cinta </i><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>[</b></span><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>coz i love you so much</b></span></span><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>** ini lah saat terakhirku melihat kamu </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[and this is my last chance to see u</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>jatuh air mataku menangis pilu </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[</span></b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>tears falling, i'm crying</b></span></span><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>hanya mampu ucapkan selamat jalan kasih </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">all i can say is goodbye..</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>satu jam saja ku telah bisa </i><i>cintai kamu kamu kamu di hatiku</i><i> </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b> </b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>[</b></span></span><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>in only one hour i can </b></span></span><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>love u,u and u in my heart</b></span></span><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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<i>namun bagiku melupakanmu </i><i>butuh waktuku seumur hidup </i><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">[</span></b><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><b>but for me to forget u, </b></span></span><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">need a lifetime</span></b><b><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">]</span></b><i><br /></i></div>
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She said the words represent her feelings.</div>
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I don't like ST12, but this song touch me at this moment. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-70468848100436516742012-02-28T22:15:00.016+07:002013-02-26T21:04:19.506+07:00i miss u,pa...<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">We didn't spend much time in talking ever since til he admitted to hospital.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> I only had last 4 months to know him more.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> And it's too short</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> And it's too fast</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> And it's too shocking</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> To lose u...</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">and i even haven't said how much i love u...</b><br style="color: black;" /><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> It feels like losing a shelter that covered u all this time, already broken</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Losing a secureness that comfy u all this time, already gone</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Losing a first layer that protected u, already torn</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Losing a leader, guider, instructor of life</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Losing someone too precious to u</span><i><br style="color: black;" /></i><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><b style="color: red;">Me, miss u so much pa</b></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><b style="color: red;"> </b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b style="color: red; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So so so so so much.. </b></span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">~~Miss time when he's so dependant~~</span></span></span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <i><span style="font-size: small;">"I wanna drink water then gargle 2times"</span></i></span><i><span style="font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I wanna throw out my slams"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I wanna go outside"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I want apple juice"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I want my milk, no sugar one"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I want to sit"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I want learning to walk"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I want otrivin"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I want ricola"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I want ketoprak/ fried kwetiauw/ pork bellies/ banana/ peanut/ grapes/ capcay/ puyunghai"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Where is my bowl and tissues?"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Massage me, here on my legs-my back-my hands"</span></span></i><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: #a64d79;">After doing those, he'd fell asleep. And woke up in another 30mins. </span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #a64d79;">And repeating those over and over again.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="font-size: large;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">~~Miss time when he has delirium, losing memory temporarily~~</span></b></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <i><span style="font-size: small;">"Who are u?"</span></i></span><span style="font-size: small;"><i><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Which minister are u?"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Help me, I'm robbed"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Hello, police. I want to report this robbing case"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Where is my card?"</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "Keep this for me" (his hands gestured giving things to u)</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> "I have 10wifes, 1st is (mom's chinese name), 2nd is (mom's indonesian first-name), 3rd (mom's indonesian last-name), 4th forget and so on"</span></i><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Eating peanut and banana (when actually there was nothing)</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Boxing-kicking-yelling at his bed and person near to him</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Pulling his insertion and didn't feel hurt</span></span><br style="color: black;" /><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">~~Miss time when he's fully alert</span></b></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">~~</span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: small;">He doesn't complain much.</span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He behaves so well.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He tells us about much things.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He asks current time and date.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He forgets what happened in previous day.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He remembers himself&his family identity.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He says mommy is a tough and loyal woman to accompany him all the time.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He asks about his business.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He wants to call relatives.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He wants to wash hands and hairs.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He wants to exercise more.</span></span><br style="color: black;" /><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">~~Miss time when I still have him HERE~~</b></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="color: #38761d; font-size: small;">I play with his hair, made it look younger with mohawk style</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I pose him to be cute in front of my phone-camera </span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #38761d;">I encourage him to get fatter and healthier</span><br />
I pinch his cheeks whenever he falls asleep after being annoying<br />
I smile whenever he's dreaming and his hands start moving to the air trying to take something<br />
I laughs when he has dream of eating banana<br />
I massage him without sleeping at night as when I stop he'll start screaming 'auch, adoohh, adooohhh'<br />
I put cute pooh-pillow at his forehead whenever he feel the temperature is cold<br />
I teach him to say 'pass motion' (in english) rather than 'berak' (in indonesian) when we are in singapore hospital<br />
I change his diapers in home. He'll say "my butt is broken into 4, it hurts so much"</span><br style="color: black;" /><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">~~Miss time when he's normal</span></b></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">and healthy~~</span></b></span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <span style="font-size: small;">He wakes up quite late, takes a bath, exercises inside the room, eats porridge, changes his clothes and prepares to work.</span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He always stays outside at balcony sitting on his fave chair, having his coffee.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He watches indonesian serial movies, makes a detail note of actress/actor, takes pics of his fave.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He repaires every single thing that is broken at home. He doesn't like to postpone.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">He's arrogant, strong and success person.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> He's very talkative and it's for hours.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">He's a compulsive, super neat and clean person.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">He's a good organizer, he manages everything. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-size: x-large;"><b style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Pa, </b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"> <b><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I really still wish having another time with u</span></b></span><b><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> I really still wish having a leader, a man in home</span><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> I really still wish taking care of u longer whatever it takes</span><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> I really still wish pairing u with mom in next occasions, and we take happy pics together</span><br style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> I really still wish u meet my one, attend my wedding later, play with my child and they call u 'grandpa'</span></b><span style="color: black;"><b><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;"><b><span style="color: red; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I really still wish u grow old happily together with us</span></b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times when i'm thinking whether i should do 10times better than what i did to fight for ur life.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times that i regret so much</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times i curse for this unfair life</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times when i want to cry out loud but no tears coming out but my heart screaming</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times that i don't want to face</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times when mom cries and end-up we all cry</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times i still feel that u are here</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;">There are times i wish this is only dreams</span><br style="color: black;" /><b><span style="color: black;">I really miss u til nothing can express my feeling well </span></b><br style="color: black;" /><b><span style="color: black;">And i don't know what to do..</span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> <i style="color: #38761d;">They said, I should let go..for your sake, f</i></span></span><i style="color: #38761d;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">or ur best, for ur peacefulness</span></i><br />
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<i style="color: #38761d;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">But do they feel the way i feel? <br />
It's hard. and it's a big fight inside my heart.</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></i><span style="font-size: small;"><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> <i>How silly life is when I should be happy for loved-one whose leaving?</i></span><i style="color: #38761d;"><br />
How silly I am when I can't accept fact that he went to his best resting place?</i><span style="color: black;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>Pa,</b></span><br />
I don't want to say I let u go..cause I never will. <br />
I prefer to say I let u rest in peace in heaven. <br />
As there is nicer, and u are happier.<br />
And promise me that u will.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I'll keep u in my mind, in my heart, forever</span></div>
<b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">I love u the way I did. I always be. </span><br />
How r u up there, pa?</span></b>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-39480473279190910912012-02-05T20:07:00.001+07:002012-10-15T00:53:58.380+07:00Heaven knows<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I don't need people to know what I do<br />
I don't need people to count what I sacrifice<br />
I don't need people to feel the way I feel<br />
I don't need people symphatize me whenever I fall</span></i><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> </span><i style="color: black;">Also, I don't need people to <b>judge</b> me.</i><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">I choose silent</span></span></b></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><b><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"></span></span></b></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br />
<span style="color: black;">As sharing much, nothing change. Only feel a bit relieve by trashing to others.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> As talking much, make misunderstanding.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> As complaining much, set a line with closest person.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> As arguing often, just hurt each other.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> As asking more, no response.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Must be a single fighter.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Try to be okay with it.</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">Have u shown compassion?</span><br style="color: blue;" /><span style="color: blue;"> Have u done your part?</span><br style="color: blue;" /><span style="color: blue;"> Have u done your best?</span><br style="color: blue;" /><span style="color: blue;"> Have u stopped having excuses?</span><br />
<span style="color: blue;"><b>Y-O-U-R C-H-O-I-C-E</b>, makes it different.</span><br />
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<b style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"Less expectation,less hurt"</span></b></span><b style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> </span></b><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br />
<span style="color: black;">And I'm living my way.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> And I'm stop bothering others.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Judge me the way u like, hate me the way u want.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Do what u think is right, so do I.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Not who is better but who do better.</span><br />
<span style="color: #666666;">I am me, and always be.</span><br style="color: #666666;" /><span style="color: #666666;"> U are u, and always be.</span><br style="color: #666666;" /><span style="color: #666666;"> Thus, let it be.</span><br />
<b style="color: #6aa84f;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"Some people do, they keep quiet"</span><br style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> "Some other people don't, they keep talking"</span></b><br />
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<span style="color: black;">I believe </span><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">*and keep strengthen myself to believe*</span></span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Heaven will pay this off.</span><br style="color: black;" /><span style="color: black;"> Heaven will make this worth it.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: red;">Heaven knows</span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"><i>(they see)</i></span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-84020740179093657992012-01-25T23:37:00.002+07:002012-10-15T00:55:38.326+07:00......<div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">if i put more smile,</span> <span style="color: #666666; font-size: large;">will i really smile?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">if i cry out loud, <b>will they feel what i feel?</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b style="color: red;">if i complain much,</b></span> <span style="color: black;">will this solve?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">if i stop having my time, will this work?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">if i get closer with God,</span> will all be easier?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #999999;">if i have boyfriend, </span><span style="color: black;">will it be lessen?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">if i don't think,</span> <span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: red;">will it go out of my mind?</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">if i don't share, will it be temporary? </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #666666; font-size: x-large;">if i have billions,</span> <span style="color: black;">will i reverse the situation?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">if i just run, will it still happen?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: red;">if i surrend,</span> <b style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">will it stop?</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: black;">there are times</span> <span style="color: red; font-size: large;">when u just wanna throw your shits and u don't care.</span></span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3289542236133120542.post-11253597534655623342012-01-16T17:20:00.026+07:002012-11-19T23:01:36.176+07:00Thank you to survive<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">I've never stayed at hospital in my life.<br />
Honestly I don't know how it feels.<br />
But I know how it feels on him.<br />
It was so tough.<br />
He hated hospital.<br />
<span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">Few times he was angry.</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> Few times he cried.</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> Few time he asked when to go home.</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> Few times he wanted to give up.</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> Few times he lost his hope.</span><br style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;" /><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> Few times he said <b>"this is my last day, I can't take it anymore"</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"> Doctor said that was what we had to decide.<br />
Having 8hours bypass heart surgery with his condition was almost impossible.<br />
I cried when I knew the possibilities was low.<br />
I forgot low doesn't mean zero.<br />
<b><span style="color: red;">Miracles did happen, it was POSSIBLE.</span></b><br />
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I cried night <i>before</i> the surgery as i scared to lose him.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br />
I cried night <i>after </i>the surgery as he woke up and survived.<br />
He said <b style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">"So, it was successful"</span></b> and my eyes were wet.<br />
Not matter how many times he whined, he still had incredible survival spirit.</span><br />
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<b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;">He doesn't let life takes control, <span style="font-size: large;">he takes control.</span></span></b><br />
<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>He is a strong man indeed.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><i>Thus,</i></span><i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br />
<i>Half of ur eye-sight<br />
Instability of walking<br />
Few of ur memories<br />
Independency of taking care urself<br />
Ability going back to work</i><br />
<b style="color: black;">For whatever it is that u lost,<br />
I still thank you to survive.<br />
I still be thankful that u're still here with us.</b><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: small;">World doesnt need to know what we've been through, Dad.</span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: small;">No matter what,</span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: small;">we'll have a better days next.<br />
we'll never give up on u.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b style="color: red;">I HEART U.</b></span><br style="color: red;" /><span style="color: red;"> (I always will)</span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0