God's piece of cake

He is my hi-school friend, we were close as he used to borrow all assignments, notes, everything related to school thingy. He's smart but lazy :p. We weren't talk deeply before, we only said jokes to one another. We lost contact for few years, til we start to meet again around last year

Feb 2012
He BBM me and asked "How's ur life", my answer "I'm quite okay, so far still good". 
I am introvert, I am introvert, I'll keep it myself.
July 2012
He BBM me again and asked "How's ur life?u popped in my mind while i was meditating yesterday", my answer "I'm not okay". 
What the hell with introvert, i can't hold it anymore.. 
He asked me to meet up.
The day we met, first half hour I still smiled. The next two and half hour I cried. I told him stories, how I felt about my current life, how I feel cursed without choice for my own-life. I was unhappy, had unease days, no passion, depressed, lost hope, full of anger and pain, etc, etc, etc.
He listened. Only listened.
I asked him two "why should me?" and "why should now?"

He answered

"Why should u?"
Because if not u, then WHO? U know exactly that there's nobody else...
Take this as a gift, and i believe that u CAN.
You have a genuine heart to do this
Maybe ur life is meant to be this, not only helping urself but also helping others
And it starts by helping ur own family

"Why should now?" 
Because anyway u won't ever be ready as u're scared, ur comfort zone is taken now.
As i know u, u're a sistematic and under-control person, it makes u crazy when things happen out of ur control even if u try not to. 
It's good to happen now, as u have a bunch time and long journey to accomplish it in ur whole life. 
U know what....i don't feel sympathy to u with all of this, I feel HAPPY for u!
Why? I know the ending is gonna be great, and u must go through this step to reach those ending. In the end everything's gonna be alright. 
U're NOT alone at least u have me as brother.. don't worry, HAVE FAITH"
He definitely touched my heart.
Then he continued
"Maybe in of ur prayers, u asked God/whatever u call it, someone to help u and he did sent me to u". I did ask universe for it. My mouth was zippered.

I did one thing that night.
ACCEPTANCE. only
I accept that dad has to rest in heaven thus i take his role here.
I accept that shitty things happen for whatever reason for me, now or later.
I accept whatever life has given me in life, good or bad.
Somehow I started feeling positive since that day. I feel alright.
"If this is all I should do then DO, wholeheartedly, it happens for reason", told me to myself.
And I thank u Amrit for meeting me that night.
I had the biggest learning in life, yet.
U slapped me right :)

"Yesterday i was clever, so I wanted to change the world. 
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself", rumi

The next morning, he sent me this beautiful message that I wanna share with u all, remember this:  
God’s piece of cake
This is about the best thing I've ever read as an explanation.
Sometimes we wonder,
'What did I do to deserve this?' or 'Why did God have to do this to me?'
Here is a wonderful explanation!
A daughter is telling her Mother how everything
is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend
broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and
asks her daughter if she would like d snack, and the
daughter says, 'Absolutely Mom, I love your cake.'
'Here, have some cooking oil,' her Mother offers.
'Yuck' says her daughter.
'How about a couple raw eggs?' 'Gross, Mom!'
'Would you like some flour then?
Or maybe baking soda?'
'Mom, those are all yucky!'
To which the mother replies:
'Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves.
But when they are put together in the
right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! '
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why
He would let us go through such bad and difficult
times. But God knows that when He puts these things
all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful!
God is crazy about you.
He sends you flowers every spring and
a sunrise every morning.
Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen.
He can live anywhere in the universe,
and He chose your heart.
 
My heart :)