Answered, with additional :)

Down
I almost lost hope.
I live my day in worries.
I spend my night with thinking.
News coming up.
Most of them shaking my braveness.
Most of them attack my heart.
Thumping, thumping, thumping.
What if what if...

Situation get worse.
It's not only about one storm. It a continuously out of control storms. Yes, plural,with s.
I have no choice.
I have no option.
Seems like numb myself will be the only good way for me.
Seems like stop complaining will be the only good way for me.

They say "be strong, keep patient, praying more"
I listen. But I doubt.
Try my best to throw away those bad feeling, bad thought.
Try to hold my tears.
Try to focus to what I'm supposed to focus on
Try to save my energy.
Try to make my time worth it.
I'm giving a way to my positivism.
I'm giving a way to my faith.
I want them to win.

I wonder what will happen next day, next 2day, next week?
Then...
After those dark days, a little hope fills the place.
I feel relieve, so.
I feel happy, so.
I feel okay. Back to its place.
I know none can predict future, what will happen next.
But...
Universe know my limit.
Universe know how exhausted I am.
Finally...
Universe answered, with additional :)